Linking up over at The Extraordinary Ordinary today!
Every time I post a blog I get lots of spam*. It’s part of the deal with blogging. You accept it, like mosquitoes. It’s just part of the blogging package.
I delete the spam with a clever button my WordPress site called, you guessed it, “Delete Spam.” It’s a wonderful thing – I just click it and whoosh! Spamola is gone, flushed away.
I wish sometimes I had a Delete Spam button for after dinner dishes. Or whining. Or bills. Or alarm clocks. Or tv shows that involve people sitting at desks yelling at other people.
But today, as I was cleaning up my spam with the zeal, I noticed something:
“Great job here!”
“This site is amazing and wonderful!”
“I am in awe. This is the best information I have read all day. I must tell my brother.” (I don’t really understand how spammers are always talking about their family, but I imagine they just must be really into their kin. In a robotic, electronic way. I guess.)
The thing that caught me is that, as silly as all those messages might be, I couldn’t help but smile at the compliments.
Lately I have found myself in that darkened room that is walled by negative self talk. The conversations that I have with myself are binding. They keep me in the room, as much as I hate it there. It’s gloomy, and honestly? Rather boring. But yet, here I sit:
“You are not a good mom.”
“This is just awful.”
“I am embarrassed. What kind of parent am I? Other moms are so together. You are all apart. What’s wrong with you?”
And so on.
Today I am going to learn from the spammers. If I can’t say anything nice about me, I am going to say something illogical and strangely endearing, like, “This blog is the image of perfection and has meticulous learning in it!” This, I know makes no sense, but thank you anyway, robotic spammer from the interwebs. If I can’t be kind, I’ll try to spout enthusiasm at least.
Or perhaps I could just focus on some words:
I cannot be great, but I can try. I am here now and with my God. And yes, you know that rest. He is amazing. And every day, all the time, He tells me He loves me.
So, go forth, bloggers. Listen to the spam. If you get a message like this today:
“Wonderful news here! This news is important and forthcoming. I will return entirely!”
Take it for what it’s worth:
You are wonderful.
You are important.
Return to Him, and to that, entirely.
*These spam remarks are copied directly from my spam comments. I know, right? They’re kinda whackadoodle.