When God Shuts a Door, Somewhere He Opens a Window. Or Not.

Linking up with Five Minute Friday today.

The theme:

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When He shuts a door for you, He doesn’t always open a window.

Sometimes He opens the door… but later.

Or the window is cracked open, but you have to push and shove and fuss with it.

Or there’s no door and no window and just you being still and sitting with it for days. Or months. Or more.

Or sometimes another door swings to wide open but you don’t like that door. It’s purple. And you don’t like purple. Why would God give you a purple door?

Or He asks you to go through the window, and it swings shut and wacks you on the arse as you squirm through.


A bit over three years ago, I was drowning. I had a horrible addiction to wine, you see, and any other sort of lovely numbing alcohol, and I couldn’t quit.

I just couldn’t quit.

There were doors all around me. Doors to hospitals, and rehabs, and AA meetings, and churches… And even a door to my father’s house – he is an alcoholic in recovery, over fifty years of recovery, and his door was wide open.

I was surrounded by doors, wide open, bedecked by flowers, well swept walks, outstretched hands…


But I wouldn’t walk through any of them. Too terrified. Too stuck. Curtains drawn.

God didn’t shut the door. He simply showed me all the others. And then He helped me to get up and walk out of my own.

Into meetings. Into churches. Into words. Into prayers.

And yes, into my father’s house, where I told him who I was.

And he hugged me and reminded me who he was.

And in it all, God kept telling me, “I am. I AM.”

“I am bigger than all of this. I am bigger than addiction. And fear. And pain. Keep walking.”

So, every morning, I choose to stay sober for another twenty-four hours. Every day, I pray, “Lord, please keep me sober for another day. Just today.”

And then I grip His hand tightly, and we walk through the door.




  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I started off amused and chuckling at the number of times I’ve been hit in the arse as I try to climb through the window that I thought was opened to me, and ended up in tears. I’m so glad you were able to get out your door and share your story. Blessings in the next 24 hours. And the 24 after that. Again, and again, and again.

  2. Oh beautiful, brave girl. Love this post. Being the mom of an adult daughter that has struggled twice with pill-addiction, I can relate. She says each morning “Today I choose joy and sobriety, with Christ.” Amen. Keep being brave. #FMF

  3. More prayers and hugs to you, my brave friend, who shares hope with other imperfect people! Because God can’t use perfect people …

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